Earlier this week, I was asked to be on an online TV show. It was a very exciting morning here, complete with lots of webcam testing and surveying the light in different parts of my house (not to mention trying to sort out what I would say). A certain little girl was just as excited as I was.
And then, it fell through. No fifteen minutes of fame, for now. Just a regular, old Tuesday.
But my girl has been asking all week to see me on TV. Whether she forgets that I’ve told her that it fell through or hopes against hope that each time she asks, the answer will have changed, I’m still not sure. But she keeps asking.
On top of all that, she is going to turn five tomorrow. Tomorrow. Five. I have to keep saying it over and over to make it sink in while, at the same time, I really don’t want it to sink in at all. It cannot be possible that five years have already passed since the day I kissed her baby head for the first time. And yet, I also feel like she has been with me my whole life. Motherhood is surreal a lot of the time.
So in honor of my girl’s fifth birthday, and my not-quite TV appearance, I decided to post my first ever video here on the blog. Seems like a win-win-win: my girl gets to see me ‘on TV,’ I get to practice my video skills for the next time (oh yes, there will be a next time) and you get to hear what my voice sounds like (don’t you always wonder that about the bloggers whose words you read all the time?).
Here goes. Happy birthday, my girl. You are my everything.