I’d do it all again


He sat between us pulling at blades of grass and she watched his every move, her smile deep and wide and her eyes literally glittering. She didn’t look wistful. She was completely present. In this moment. In the company of a small baby and a woman she deemed to be a young mama. She went on and on about how magical they are. Babies. How much fun. How special this time.


And then, still not looking wistful, still glittering, she said, “I miss it.”

I smiled. I know. Everyone does.

“If we had all the time in the world, I’d do it all again right now.” she went on, “But we don’t have all the time in the world.”

And I smiled. “That’s nice to hear.” I said. And it was.

And we talked about writing down their stories. Because they will want to read them later. When the are older and struggling – a bad day, a fight with a friend, any one of a hundred adolescent moments that will cause them to question who they are and what they should do and what is important – they will want to read these stories. To know what they were like before they could remember. What they loved. What they didn’t. Who they were before they knew themselves.

She wished she wrote more of it down. I do too. Not in a regret kind of way. But in a “wouldn’t it be nice” kind of way. Wouldn’t it be nice if we had all the time in the world.

We could do it all. And do it all again.

just write.


  1. when we see pictures of ourselves as babies, we have the narrative of just our parents telling us the context of the picture. That’s great to have, don’t get my wrong … but our kids, I hope, the kids of bloggers, will have the words we chose to describe the times we loved with them.

    I wonder if my kids will look at my blog when I’m gone.

    – Eli
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  2. I think that’s a lovely reason to write down their stories. So on the bad days or the not just right days when we want to make it right but don’t know exactly how, maybe those stories could bring them comfort, or as you say, tell them who they were before they could remember. I’d do it all again too if I had time.
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    • Isn’t it!? I often wonder what I was like as a child. How different was I then (or not)? I feel like there are important secrets to uncover there.

  3. I’d do it all again too. I started my blog for many reasons – too many emotions, writing is my peaceful place, etc. but I also started it for them to read one day. Or more than one day. Some days.
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  4. That is so lovely. I love the thought of my boys reading my blog one day and not only learning about themselves, but knowing how much I thought of them, how much I love them, and maybe feeling like they know me a little better. And I would do it all again, too.
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