It’s been a tough week.
Tough. Doesn’t seem strong enough. Slog. That’s the word stuck in my brain.
For reasons big and small.
All week long, I’ve set my sights on those reasons. The big and the small. Turned them over and over in my hands. Internalized them. They are sharp. Even the small ones. They cut and bruise. My heart feels so raw and my soul battered.
All week, I tried to keep perspective. It gets worse than this. There is worse than this. I am lucky. We are healthy. We have so much. We are blessed.
Some weeks perspective is tough to keep. Some days it is just too far out of reach. Just beyond my fingertips.
This week ends today. The weekend brings new and different. Next week brings a change. A new beginning.
So today, it is time to repair. Heal the cuts and bruises. Go back over this week and find the good things. Big and small. Turn them over and over in my hands. Internalize them. And start again.
This week, I am thankful for…
… friends who come over for an impromptu pizza party when M is out of town.
… a few moments to pretend it is spring.
… sleepovers.
“Mommy, the snow looks like glitter!”
… a few early morning minutes surrounded by the quiet of snow.
… quiet mornings.
… knitting.
… early Valentine’s Day celebrating.
loving that crooked O
banana bread breakin the mold
… sunshine.
… successfully renewing a book at the library.
… TV that lifts and inspires when all I have the energy for is passive watching.
… two happy, healthy, wonderful children.
This week’s photo-365:
Happy weekend, all. Tell me what you are thankful for. Then, go find the new and different this weekend.
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linking up a bit this week with high five for friday (I have more than 5 – hope that’s cool!)
January 25, 2013 at 10:02 am
I’m thankful that I can take my daughter to dance tomorrow. And as for new things, I just made a big life change, so everything’s new!
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January 25, 2013 at 11:43 am
That is beautiful! I need to find the good things this week and embrace them.
BTW, I’m hosting a cute Valentine’s day giveaway on my blog.Please visit and pass the word around.
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January 25, 2013 at 11:53 am
I am thankful for your posts! You keep things real and remind me that we can start over in an hour, a day , the next week. I love it.
This week I am grateful for the “I love you mom” that I spontaneously got several times one day from each of my girls. I am grateful that I found the patience I was desparately needing. I am grateful for my job- my company just had big layoffs and you never know how bad you want your job until you see several people around you lost theirs. I am grateful for my 2 healthy ,beautiful daughters as I am helping my friend grieve for her 2 baby twin girls that came into this world too early. I am grateful.
Tanya
January 25, 2013 at 1:36 pm
Each moment can mean renewal, which is awesome for us moms, isn’t it? Always a chance to wave the white flag then start over.
Happy weekend, my friend! xo
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January 25, 2013 at 4:56 pm
What a lovely gratitude list. Hang in there – I hope that slog passes and in the meantime, I hope you keep finding the perspective you need.
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January 28, 2013 at 7:02 am
So perfectly written, lady. And slog? Brilliant. I’ve been stuck in that muck before. It’s easy to get overwhelmed and weighed down by those stressful bits. Hope your weekend was a healing time, rebound from the funk and start fresh today!
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January 28, 2013 at 8:31 am
Hope this week is looking up! Sending you some healing vibes to further mend the cuts and bruises
I’m thankful for healthy kids too. I’m hoping to make it through to the Spring with just some minor bumps along the way 
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January 30, 2013 at 11:49 am
{Melinda} This week, I am thankful that even though I am weak, that I have a God who loves me and is so faithful.
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