First smiles

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I can’t remember anymore how old she was. I have two weeks stuck in my head but that doesn’t seem possible, does it? But maybe it was. They say the first smile happens when you need to see it the most. When you’ve been up all night or done three consecutive loads of poppy, milky laundry. I don’t remember which it was that day, but I do remember needing that smile.

She was in her crib and I walked into her room to get her, like always. Leaning over the side of the crib and greeting her before un-doing her swaddle or picking her up. I used to take my time with her. Give her some time to wake up. Some time for us to greet each other before the bustle and changing diapers began. Funny how not much has changed.

I looked down at her and she looked up at me. And there it was. The smile. The first. Her dark eyes lit up as mine filled with tears. Her whole face exploded in a full-on, happy-to-see-mama smile. It was one of the most beautiful things I’d ever seen.



I’m so glad now to be writing these things down.

First thing in the morning and just me and him. Daddy and big sister out in search of coffee and breakfast. I leaned over the side of the co-sleeper to get him up, answering his coos. My left hand under his bottom, feeling suspiciously wet. I glanced into the swaddle left behind and, sure enough, wet and poopy. Oh yes, it’s time to get up now.

I laid him on the travel changing pad that we keep on our bed now for moments like these. Changed the diaper. Changed the pajamas. Tossed the dirty ones into the co-sleeper to be bundled into one pile of laundry later.

Fully awake but reluctant to get out of bed I looked down at him. Big dark eyes wandering about. I leaned over to give him a kiss on his cheek, making one of those quintessential, high-pitched baby noises to accompany the kiss. And there it was. His face exploded into a loving-mama’s-kisses smile. They say you know the first when they smile with their whole face. And every inch of his face was smiling. It was one of the most beautiful things I’d ever seen.

Yes, the first smile is one of my favorite baby milestones.


linking up with Heather to Just Write.

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