Remember this time


My little girl,

Our world is about to change. You know that… but not really. And don’t worry. I don’t really either.

For almost three years, it’s been just us three. And oh, my love, I have relished that time. Beautiful and simple. Perfect.

feet on the beach

And none of this is to say that I feel anything but joy and excitement when I think about the arrival of your baby brother. My son. I eagerly await the day he comes into our world and changes it forever. I long to watch you be a big sister to him and I promise to do everything within my power to help you both develop the strongest of sibling friendships. We are going to have a blast, our family of four.

But when I think about this special time coming to an end, I feel a twinge of sadness in my heart.

These days, we walk across the field to the park, hand-in-hand, just us two.

These days, we bake cupcakes together and giggle as we lick the batter off of the beaters and you’re amazed that loving cake batter is another thing that we have in common.

These days we cuddle on the couch or in your big girl bed, reading book after book, and you fit so perfectly with my arm wrapped around you, your head on my shoulder.

These days, I savor every bit of ‘just us’ as I try to fill your memory bank with these moments.

feet at a picnic

Because there will be days ahead when you will crave these times and I cannot deliver them. Or, at least, not like I do now.

This week, we made so many memories. We spent hours in the pool, just us, living in our own little world. Me keeping you afloat and teaching you the few basics of swimming that I remember from long-ago swimming lessons. You relying on me and teaching me the magic of pure, imaginative play. We swam and splashed. Just me and you. Those are the moments that I want to look back on long after you’ve shown the world that you are an amazing big sister.

I sometimes wonder if we’re doing the right thing. Rocking your world like this. Ending this special time, taking away ‘just us’ when we could have gone on like this forever.

But then I see the way you stare at the baby sitting one table over when we’re out for dinner. I see the way you love on your friend’s little sister and smother her with hugs and kisses. I watch how you play nicely with other kids and share so easily and nurture everyone around you. And I know. You were meant to have a little.

little girl and baby doll

So we’ll live it up these next few weeks. We’ll curl up in these moments and savor every hug, kiss, and giggle. We’ll relax as this phase of our lives comes to a close.

And we will remember this time.




  1. awe, that’s beautifully written, tricia! man, you have a way with words!
    weekend greetings from etta who’s stopping by from sits’ saturday sharefest 🙂

  2. That is so sweet. I don’t know if I will have another child (freaking biological clock) but I have thought about this before. It would be bittersweet to give up “us.” But, for you, it’s just going to be a little bigger “us.” You are lucky!
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  3. That’s a beautiful post. It’s always a bit hard when something comes to an end, but it also means the beginning of something new!
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  4. Oh, you made me cry! My baby is due 1 October, and I am just now realising how special this time is with my little girl…and how different things will soon be. I so hope she will be OK with all the changes, I love her so much.
    Beautiful post. Thank you. (I very rarely cry when reading) x
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    • Oh I am so sorry to have made you cry! But congratulations to you! You are such a beautiful mama to your girl, I know she will be ok and that you will help her through it all.

  5. This is a beautiful post (and gorgeous pictures). It is a bittersweet time before baby arrives. Enjoy it and all the memories. Visiting from SITS!
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  6. This is beautiful. And I remember that feeling with my first. Now that I have three, I know they each like it if I can manage some alone time with any of them, so I try to arrange special time every once in awhile, even if it involves only taking one kid to the grocery store 🙂

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    • So good to hear you are able to arrange special time with each of them. That is something I worry so much about right now. But I’m sure my girl will love mommy-daughter trips to the grocery store 🙂

  7. {Melinda} Such a sweet, sweet post. I remember having those same mixed feelings when my then-three-year-old girl was about to welcome her baby brother. I felt like I was losing something at the same time I was gaining something wonderful. But you don’t really lose anything. It is just different in an amazingly delightful way. And you can still carve out that special mama-daughter time. It will just take a little more planning. 🙂

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  8. This is so beautiful! I remember that precious time when it was just the two of us knowing we would soon be three and wanting to savour the moments with my little girl. I love how you have captured it. Expressed so honestly and beautifully xx
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  9. Oh, how utterly sweet. I wish you the most beautiful of transitions into a family of four, and I remember that ache of missing combined with the joy of anticipation.
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  10. Oh how you captured this time of transition – beautifully, bittersweetly.

    {You will rock this! That, I know for sure!}
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